Today marks two weeks of sobriety for me. I was trying to think of what sounded longer: two weeks or 14 days. At the end of the day, it really doesn’t matter. For me, it’s an accomplishment. Having been on a binge drinking roller coaster for all of my adult life, I am more than glad to be rid of that chapter.
I know not to throw the book out so to speak. I have too many lessons to learn from that lifestyle. Namely why did I do what I did and why was it so important to keep up the reckless cycle? What was/am I running from?
So, who am I ? I am a sober wife, mom, sister, daughter, teacher, friend, and alcoholic. I will revel in all of those titles because that is what defines me TODAY.
I am also honest. I have “outed” myself to my three good friends who are also coworkers. Each one of them hugged me and asked what they could do to help me on my journey. They are fantastic people and I am thankful I have let them in on my personal journey for they will surely play an important role.
I am also feeling a lot less guilty TODAY. I know I have made some terrible mistakes; I still have amends to make to many people. But for right here, right now, I can sit with myself and not cry over guilt or shame for my past.
I am allowing myself to revel in where I am TODAY. And, I hope others who are in a similar situation do the same.